I'm Alice in Wonderland , until the Queen takes off my head!
So, you probably think at least life can never get boring when you look out of your window and see Barbie Pink Cows in Bright Blue fields. Or a visit from a summer wasp makes you feel like an actor in a 50's B movie. Can't be that bad right ?
Well think again.
Although , there is no way to test it , even my neurologist was unwilling to put the diagnosis in my notes in case his colleagues wouldn't believe him , I seem to be suffering from a rare type of Migraine condition called Alice in Wonderland Syndrome.
Along with the other wild and not so wonderful migraine varieties in my head's bag of nasty tricks , this syndrome causes me to see strange hallucinations , or makes the people and objects around me change shape and size before it finally finishes the psychedelic field trip with an intense migraine head ache.
Before , I discovered , ' being Alice', could actually be a thing , I mostly kept what I was seeing to myself.
I hadn't linked the fact that these visions were followed by head pain , and that it could be the onset of the Migraine that caused them. In fact , I was convinced that I was mad in a way that nobody would understand , and thought the headache only happened because of the way my mind was being overwhelmed by the experience.
I only discovered the rare set of symptoms in the Migraine family when I had been diagnosed with Chronic Migraine Syndrome and my Neurologist suggested that I look up the different types of Migraine that I was having , so that I could understand what I was going through and why.
When , I returned for my follow up appointment , I mentioned the syndrome , he hadn't really heard of it , but looking back on the notes from the previous appointment he noted that I had already finally been brave enough to mention this to him before learning that the condition existed.
Believe me , when it happens it is still scary , but it is also relief to know that I'm not losing my mind , or that I haven't accidentally fallen down a fictitious Rabbit Hole.
No , merely just receiving another unwanted gift from the uninvited friend that keeps on giving - Professor Migraine.
And , on a positive note, it means I know the Pain is about to strike and I can prepare for it.
At least I am in good company , as , in case your interested , it appears that Lewis Carroll was a famous migraine sufferer whom was plagued by the same thing , hence the name.
Now , where is that giant green Bunny Rabbit I saw earlier!