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My right hip really hurts. It's been hurting for 3 days now. I got the cortisone injections last month and it seems they didn't work.

Yesterday I got some really yummy sugar free snack bars and protein pastry rolls. I tried one of the pastries and it was delicious. I also got a Swiffer wet jet from Amazon. I'm gonna mop my kitchen floor.

I took 3 bags of trash to the dumpster yesterday. I had trouble cleaning cuz my hips were really messed up. I took a Percocet but it didn't help. I've got a lot to do today. I'll get it done. I'm gonna just have to push through the pain.#check

So they had trouble finding a vein for the IV. They stuck me 3 times. Eventually they found one in my left wrist. Hurts like hell. But at least they found one.

Findings from the colonoscopy:

*Congested mucosa in ileum- biopsied

*Ulcers in the ileocecal valve- biopsy

*Congested erythematous and vascular pattern decreased mucosa in the entire colon- biopsied

*Internal hemorrhoids

After the colonoscopy I went to Starbarks and got a frappuchino. Then I got my hair cut. Then my friend and I went to a restaurant for lunch. My food didn't agree with me. I was still experiencing prep.

I was exhausted so I decided to take a nap. Yeah... I woke up at 3am. Oops#check

Well, let me check-in with you all. Currently, I am walking through yet another tough season. Without much detail, I am medically better but unemployed due to a work injury. Had an employment interview scheduled today but the interviewer failed to arrive at the virtual interview. Nice.😞! The day turned into a somewhat emotionally draining day after that experience.

However, after a brief analysis, I find that I still seek to become someone who gains praises from others. This trait is revealed each time I happen upon some social media site or even hear a Christian speaker or musician introduced. The verbal resumes full of accomplishments tend to breed one foundational reaction in me: coveting!

This coveting is often revealed in prayers like, “Lord, when will I reach my destiny” or “Father, I can’t wait to be released to reach the masses…for your glory.” Riiiight.

My coveting prayers are not voiced in those exact words. But I truly slide into a place of despair when I start my comparisons with those “celebrity” followers of Christ. As Christ reminds of his fate on this earth as I think of the upcoming holiday: Easter, which has nothing to do with sugary bunny rabbit treats. 😉!

Actually, asking God the Father and The Christ to make me a famous “Christ-like” person is a bit ironic considering his “famous” death allows me the luxury of even conversing with the Most Holy Lord. Hmmm? Christ celebrity status was based on him giving up his status…right?🤔

So, after relaxing, I hop on this site. Share my heart. Expose my inward drive, fueled often by competition, that is really the driving motivation urging me to be like Christ, in front of others, according to my will being done. No condemnation, really. I am just tired of me pouting about another’s life even after reading Jesus’s last words in the book of John: paraphrasing- Peter, if I ask him to do something what is that to you??? 😉!

I hope my shared thoughts stir others to dialogue with me, in the comments, as we walk through life together, facing the storms, whilst remaining close to #TheMighty One! I could handle your prayers for peace and employment. ❤️

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