I'm tired of living up to what a "man" is
I’m tired of not being “man enough”
I’m tired of trying to “man up”
I’m tired of trying to live up to society's expectations of what a “man” or a “real man” is
I am tired of trying to mask my feelings, pretending to be ok, only being able to show aggression, not being able to express my feelings, always being on edge, frustrated, and just tired.
I’m tired of hiding in my apartment, bedroom, house, car, restroom stall, bathroom, etc. because I do not want to be exposed as being less of a “man”
The whole you’re not “man enough” and “man up” just makes me feel less than an unworthy
The social norms of what a “man is” makes me feel like giving up or ending it all because the competition on proving how “man” I’m is physically, psychologically, emotionally, and spiritually debilitating.
I want to end it all because the pain is too great, it's hard. I do not want to fight and compete no more.
I don’t know
So, I’m done
I’m done being “man enough”
I’m done trying to “man up”
I’m done trying to live up to society's expectations of what a “man” or a “real man” is
I’m done hiding
I will freely express myself
Just because you express emotions or feelings does
not make you less of a man. It is ok to cry and there is no shame in it.
You do not need to prove how “man” you are to anyone, focus on being you and doing things that make you happy.