PTSD Support and Recovery

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*TW: Child abuse*
As a young mother, I love nothing more than being with my baby. Well, as much of a baby as a toddler can be. She is growing in leaps and bounds, and leaving this work-away-from-home mom feeling a little left in the dust. I relish the mundane and swallow whole every second spent with her. So many hugs, so many kisses. I cry (see previous post on PPD). As my PPD has gotten more manageable- one thing hasn’t. And that is my childhood trauma of watching and listening to my father physically, verbally, and mentally abuse my younger brothers. Before they could even talk. In a desperate “power” struggle for absolute obedience- he would “spank” them into submission- with many tools and his own hands. Screams. Shrieks. Day and night. My desensitized mother was only able to helplessly look on with me as they were yelled at, hit, and scared. From the age of 6 until I was well into my teens. But it began when they were just babies. Toddlers. Like mine. And so, even though I will NEVER lay a finger on her or ever speak hatefulness to her- she of course still cries and shrieks and throws fits, like we all do at that age while we figure out how to communicate and realize the world around us. How to process all of those big feelings inside of our little bodies (hell - I still don’t know how to do that sometimes). But when this happens on the daily, I notice it takes a role on my sanity. I begin to shake, have my heart flutter, and I don’t perceive the situation for what it really is. I become very sad inside- like an ache. And when she doesn’t stop- it easily escalates for me into a panic attack. How do you cope with these unavoidable things? My fiancé is incredible- he will take her while I process my emotions. But I also don’t want to stay frozen in time with my screaming little brothers every time she has a meltdown. Any words of advice or encouragement? I need to be there for her- and myself. Thank you all kindly. #Anxiety #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PostpartumDisorders #MentalHealth

Feeling a lot of aches from the medication detoxing, and a lot of tiredness as well.
It exhausts you physically and mentally, especially when you do it in a shorter amount of time than other medications.
But my body and mind will be better in the end, and be
healthy. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #BPD #PTSD

As l go further into detoxing, l can feel myself getting more and more emotional over the smallest things.
Every feeling is amplified tenfold, and l have to catch myself when I get irrationally emotional over something small.
But I know this will be worth it in the end, and there's things l can
do to help myself with my emotions. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #BPD #PTSD #PTSD

When you think you had gotten over a past trauma and those thoughts had been gone from your mind for a long time so you eventually thought you'd moved past it and were coping ......Only for today something to happen it and it has hit you like a truck going full speed!!!!You instantly go back to that specific point in you're life that you had tried so hard to overcome.You feel overwhelmed and overcome with so many different emotions.it actually physically takes your breath away while you feel sick with anxiety.You have been going through so much recently and some very challenging things yet this has completely knocked you, you're head is pounding hours after and the non stop overthinking is not helping.

This is something which completely caught me off guard today and has left me feeling physically and mentally exhausted......

#MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #CheckInWithMe #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #Endometriosis #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #selfcare #Insomnia #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #PostTraumaticStressDisorder

You don't owe anyone anything , if someone does not show the same respect you show them then that is on them . Sometimes we have to do what's right and what's best for us .We have to put ourselves first and that's ok.Don't ever feel wrong for putting yourself first , sometimes we have to do this in order to either protect ourselves or to grow as a person.

#MentalHealth #selfcare #CheckInWithMe #Anxiety #Depression #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #youmatter #Endometriosis #Fibromyalgia #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PTSD #Parenting #GeneralParenting #ADHD #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #ChronicFatigue

I look to the moon and think of you.

I listen to that song and think of you.

I watch our favorite movie and think of you.

I remember some of the best days of my life and think of you.

I remember some of the worst times of my life and think of you.

I remember how hard i fell in love and think of you.

I remember my worst heartbreak.. and think of you.

And as I think of you, I miss you more.

#Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #Grief #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PTSD #Recovery