Bipolar 2 Disorder

So I'm up at 3am and I have to work tomorrow morning. Thankfully I can work remote so I can hide that I'm feeling under the weather.
The seasonal changes have literally affected my sleep. I have allergies to tree pollen it seems. Allergies to various air pollen/ spores.
I was pretty stubborn and should have just taken the antihistamine last night.
But I already take daily medication, and my stomach has been irritated lately so I really didn't want to add another thing.
Fingers crossed I get some sleep!!

So I'm up at 3am and I have to work tomorrow morning. Thankfully I can work remote so I can hide that I'm feeling under the weather.
The seasonal changes have literally affected my sleep. I have allergies to tree pollen it seems. Allergies to various air pollen/ spores.
I was pretty stubborn and should have just taken the antihistamine last night.
But I already take daily medication, and my stomach has been irritated lately so I really didn't want to add another thing.
Fingers crossed I get some sleep!!

When I was unmedicated,
I was a bright light. Who danced in the rain and sang to people at stop lights.
When I was unmedicated,
I was fun. I got dirty and rolled in the dirt with my boys.
When I was unmedicated,
I was “Monica Gellar” clean. My house looked tip top.
Now that I’m medicated,
I’m bleh. I no longer act crazy.
Now that I’m medicated,
I’m distant at times. And my boys are separated.
Now that I’m medicated,
I messy. And stressed. And lazy! And my anxiety seeps through my cracks, like sewer steam.
I know who I am but I don’t.
My kids are teenagers now, and they have their own thoughts. Their own words.
And I just listen. I try to be supportive. But it feels like it’s not enough.
I was once a wild soul. Unapologetically me. The girl who’d burst out in song and dance.
Medication has tamed me.
But I’m still self discovering. Every day. Every minute. Every hour.
Every day.

#BipolarDepression #BipolarII #PTSD #MentalHealth

When I was unmedicated,
I was a bright light. Who danced in the rain and sang to people at stop lights.
When I was unmedicated,
I was fun. I got dirty and rolled in the dirt with my boys.
When I was unmedicated,
I was “Monica Gellar” clean. My house looked tip top.
Now that I’m medicated,
I’m bleh. I no longer act crazy.
Now that I’m medicated,
I’m distant at times. And my boys are separated.
Now that I’m medicated,
I messy. And stressed. And lazy! And my anxiety seeps through my cracks, like sewer steam.
I know who I am but I don’t.
My kids are teenagers now, and they have their own thoughts. Their own words.
And I just listen. I try to be supportive. But it feels like it’s not enough.
I was once a wild soul. Unapologetically me. The girl who’d burst out in song and dance.
Medication has tamed me.
But I’m still self discovering. Every day. Every minute. Every hour.
Every day.

#BipolarDepression #BipolarII #PTSD #MentalHealth

#BipolarIIDisorder a thought occurred to me the other day most of us watch videos on social media with women using lotions potions creams etc they remove their makeup without fail apply cream to their face hands and bodies and were made to feel like we should too the number of times I've said I'm going to try to do that! The reality is having bipolar 2 and GAD that's never going to happen. I'm lucky if I remember to shower some days clean my teeth others some days I just want to lay in my bed unshowered and disheveled I guess what I'm trying to say is there should be less forcing the ideal lifestyle onto those who don't have an ideal lifestyle and more praise for those of us who do manage a small win like showering or even getting up on a morning what's perfect for one isn't always perfect for everyone

#BipolarIIDisorder a thought occurred to me the other day most of us watch videos on social media with women using lotions potions creams etc they remove their makeup without fail apply cream to their face hands and bodies and were made to feel like we should too the number of times I've said I'm going to try to do that! The reality is having bipolar 2 and GAD that's never going to happen. I'm lucky if I remember to shower some days clean my teeth others some days I just want to lay in my bed unshowered and disheveled I guess what I'm trying to say is there should be less forcing the ideal lifestyle onto those who don't have an ideal lifestyle and more praise for those of us who do manage a small win like showering or even getting up on a morning what's perfect for one isn't always perfect for everyone

Thank you, thank you, thank you for adding this group to your myriad of others available! I need this one more than anything! #PTSD #Bipolar2 #copingskills #Depression #Agoraphobia

Thank you, thank you, thank you for adding this group to your myriad of others available! I need this one more than anything! #PTSD #Bipolar2 #copingskills #Depression #Agoraphobia