Innercritic

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Does anyone else have a brain that can sometimes be downright abusive? Like a persistent negative inner monologue that constantly tells you how broken or stupid or useless you are? Because if I'm completely honest, I do. And this week that brain got the best of me. I was in a shame storm fueled by insecurity and a fear that no matter what I do I'll never be good enough. And it's exhausting.

After discussing it with my therapist I recognized that part of the problem is that we live in a culture where the very thing that we need to do to run a business or promote ourselves is the thing that's directly influencing the degree to which we feel like we are never going to succeed...and that is social media.

I'm ashamed of how much time I spend on social media, but without it, people don't notice my business or my writing. Without it I can't increase my followers which I need if I ever want to publish that book I've been working on. It's a constant exhausting hustle.

So my fellow PTSD community members, if you have a cacophonous inner dialogue, what tricks do you use to tame it and talk more kindly to yourself? I'm looking to YOU for support and maybe we can help one another be less self destructive.

#Trauma #Selftalk #PTSD #CPTSD #Innercritic

I want to experience love, joy peace and trust on all new levels in my life in 2022. My intention is to show up in therapy and in life consistently, in 2022. I will show up in ways that I get the work done in my inner world, and in my outward behavior, so that I make it possible for myself to begin experiencing an abundance of love, joy, peace and trust this coming year. I intend for world, to feel and gain strength from these positive energies, coming out of me. I want to consistently follow the light inside of me, remembering always that my “light,” is the presence of my eternal essence. I intend to disengage from maladaptive and unskillful coping tool, in order to highlight my newer skills, which I have been successfully practicing for some time now. I intend to challenge my inner critic’s harsh words. I intend to trust and ask my wiser self for guidance. Instead of listening to the harsh words of my inner critic, my wiser self will help me offer myself compassion. Instead of following my “Nothing MattersPart” or “My Rebel Part” into (impulsivity, anger, rage, reactivity, revenge, retaliation, self recrimination, shame) and into a “burn myself down,” scenario……I, instead intend to listen to my wiser self guiding me to breathe, to be still, to observe, to feel, to sit with it, to respond, to love, to forgive, to be kind, TO BE PRESENT. I intend to commit to play till the end of the “game.” I intend to move the “ball” forward for MY mental health team. Since, I have a major triggering event coming up, that I have no control over…. I intend to remember that no one can control my behavior except me. I will remember to take breaks from triggered states, soothe myself or ask for help. This is also a general rule of my safety plan which I intend to stay on PERMANENTLY. I intend to bring light and happiness to my loved ones and to be kind, always, to those around me. I intend to be less self- absorbed by focusing on gratitude and compassion understanding and kindness toward others. I intend to grow my relationship with God through all of the personal actions I now undertake, especially through my new personal prayer life. I intend to grow my relationship with myself, which is the ultimate intention of these other than my intention toward God. I intend to continue integrating all of my parts with acceptance and love so that I may become wholly integrated, safe and at peaceful with myself.

#intentions #wiserself #parts #innerchild #CPTSD #Innercritic #Shame #Behavior #peace

I think, for me, the worst words used to describe me and my symptoms have to be "attention seeking" or "lazy"

Others include
"Manipulative"
"Entitled"
"Twisted"
"oversensitive"
"needy"
"over thinker"
"dumb"
"pessimistic"
"miserable"
"ignorant"
"rude"
"stroppy"
"petty"
"self absorbed"
"paranoid"
"victim complex"
"drama queen"
"childish"

How do you challenge this way of talking and prevent it becoming part of your own inner monologue? Because, I will be honest, I'm not the kindest person to myself and some of these words I have used on myself, they have not always come from people around me, whilst some words are words used to hurt or invalidate me in the past that I have taken on as part of the weaponry towards myself. I am a self bully and I need to stop. How can I challenge others' language if I am using it myself?

Does anyone else get where I'm coming from? How have you silenced your inner critic?
How do you separate your symptoms from your personality? How do you stop them from defining who you are?

#negativeselftalk #Selfworth #Innercritic #lowselfesteem #selfstigma

another painting I finished today. as part of my personal series the painful truth it’s about the self talk and self critic inside that tells lies. I’m on medication in the first place because my inner voice began to scream at me and I had a meltdown and kicked a hole in my parents couch. it told me I wasn’t good enough. I do a lot of art like this to shut it up and to tell others their not alone. #Selfharm #ArtTherapy #Anxiety #Depression #Innercritic