Not sure if this is talked about but having chronic pain in my lumbar spine region making my organs not work correctly. Makes it very difficult just to go to the bathroom. Sitting on the toilet physically hurts the longer I sit the more I start to hurt. It makes it difficult to finish using the restroom. I’ve been diagnosed with lumbar disk disease. I have sciatica from that on my left side of my body. Makes anything and everything I do so difficult. I cry more than I’m happy, I try to convince myself that if I do something I enjoy I will be okay, but then I end up not okay for days sometimes. I have only been dealing with this for 4 months. I really don’t know how to handle all of this. I don’t know how to feel sometimes I get numb when I want to cry but then I don’t see a point in crying because it won’t make a difference. I’ve been having a very difficult time with all of this. I could really use some advice or something to help me out. I know there’s a lot of you on here that have been dealing with pain for a long time that can’t ever be helped no matter how much pain meds we consume. My thoughts are my worst enemies when it comes to just trying to have a good day. Or when I just want to have 10 minutes of feeling okay. Life is so heavy and my emotions are heavy. I also became a mom that’s why all of this is happening to me makes it difficult to take care of my child. In the way I want to be. Not knowing this was going to be my life once I had my baby boy. I’ve had a back problem for over 16 years only found out about it when I was 18-19 I am 25 now. I do have a therapist, I am also in antidepressants and anxiety but I don’t know how much they are helping when I just feel hopeless. #ChronicPain #Depression #PPD #Anxiety #lifeispainfull #lumbardiskdisease