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Thank you everyone for your encouraging words. I just wanted to let you all know that I changed my name on here. It's now starbucksjunkee. Please refer to me by that screen name. I hope everyone is doing great. I have to go to bed now.

#Bipolar1 #Aspergers #social Anxiety and Driving Anxiety #OCD Pure Obsessive only

can someone give me some tips on getting approved for social security disability? I have severe gastroparesis. I got denied my first time applying while I used a law firm. I’m in Arkansas. Anything would be helpful and greatly appreciated. Thank you! #Gastroparesis #social security #getting approved #Need help

° " Work Was Extremely Busy And Stressful... My Male Boss Was So Out Of It Today... That When I Came Into Work At 8A.M.... Thing's Were Insane A Customer That's In The Military Waited More Than An Hour For 2 Taco Boxe's To Go.. My Friend Was Super Stressed Out To The Point That She Called Our G.M. In Tear's... As The Day Progressed On... Thing's Got Worse For Me... Since I Clean The Bathroom's... Someone Messed Up And Clogged The Woman's Restroom... And It Was Like A Nasty Nightmare... I Will Never Forget This Day.. And Then Our Male Boss Has This Play Thing As In A 19 Year Old Girlfriend.. That Come's To See And Distract Him Alway's.. And Today He Left Us Litterly Running The Restaurant Unsupervised Lolz... He Left To Walk To Walgreen's And Talk To His Girlfriend... For A Good While... Customer's Were Getting Angry At Me For The Neverending Slow Service... Like How Is This Alway's My Fault And I'm The Punching Bag... I Was Just Extremely Angry And Stressed Out.. By The End Of The Day.. I Made $7 In Tip's... And I Was Extremely Proud To Have Served A Severely Injured Soldier. " ° Sincerely, ☆▪︎☆S.K.☆▪︎☆ #WorkSux #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #ChronicPain #CP #Scoliosis #social Anxiety Disorder

Hi. Am seeing therapist tomorrow.
It's been a while.
I hope I can get there and not worry.
She had covid so I was worried about that.
I think at least my mood has been OK.
So we can talk about difficult things.
Am seeing some friends today. But am very nervous as I am in most social areas.
Scared of saying too much.
Or not saying enough. Can take it as it goes. #social anxiety #CPTSD #Depression .

Six months ago I was looking for a therapist. I found one. I've been twice. So it's early days but I felt I can open up to her. I felt more relaxed the second time I saw her. We haven't spoken about guilt and shame yet. But I think we will soon.
This past week has been a bit of a ambivalent one. Every year I try and embrace it more and more but it doesn't feel any easier. Right now it's everything.ive just had a real horrible week. My therapist said call a friend.
But I feel like I'm in the middle of an earthquake emotionally. I feel like I'm beating myself up because I didn't push through this anxiety.
#CPTSD #Depression #Psychosis #social anxiety #GAD

° " So Today I Tried My Best To Promote.. A Pizza That Nobody Seemed Intrested In Eating For 2 Day's Straight... Now I Have People Litterly Telling Me That I Should Smile More And Be Nice... Um I'm Sorry I Will Smile When People Stop Telling Me Too... I Have 4 Bosse's Who Yell At Me Over The Dumbest Thing's... That Are Litterly Out Of My Control... I Can't Force Customer's Into Buying This Pizza Or Other Thing's That They Do Not Want To Waste Money On.. Now That Inflation Has Made All Of The Food Item's At Work More Expensive... I'm Nice And Kind... I Had Someone Call My Boss To Tell Her That I Don't Smile Enough And That I'm A B###. Like Really How Mean Can Human's Be Just Because They Didn't Get What They Wanted. ▪︎ I'm Sorry I Will Fake It Til I Make It Then ▪︎ Since When Have Human's... Turned So Entitled And Whiney All The Time.. But Use This To Get Refund's And Free Food All The Time... Sorry But I'm Being Overwhelmed And Overworked Right Now... People Really Need To Chill Out... Welp! I'm Going To Have To Play A Fake Person Just To Survive At Work... " ☆ ° SKAOI KVITRAVN ° #Depression

Well, I have had various diagnoses—though it seems even my mental health providers who are treating me do are not forthcoming about any of those. Well, some, when it comes to my bipolar disorder and c-ptsd and prior attachment issues (I am slowly becoming more securely attached—I don’t “need” anyone for comfort, love, or help all the time—I have many activities and positive connections filling my life.). So what is it with a borderline personality disorder diagnosis sent to me by a friend? Let me say first there is nothing wrong with bpd. I am just demonstrating here that not everyone, including medical practitioners, may have the full story on hou. No one ever gave me this borderline diagnosis (though it overlaps with bipolar and c-ptsd—and even attachment issues can make it look like bpd). When I finally asked I was told I have attachment trauma, whatever that is. The fact of the matter is that any attachment style other than secure attachment will look like trauma. Yet I had a friend send me the criterion for borderline personality disorder—even after I told her I was not diagnosed with that. I felt very angry and regretful I ever told her any of my mental health struggles to begin with. “What you look for determines what you see.” A person knowing any of my mental health diagmoses will surelt now be on the lookout for those things, constantly pointing their finger in my direction. Because if we have conflict (which we have in the past) I am always to blame for my hyped up reactions (anxious attachment style I am letting go of). Well reactions do sometimes ramp up when dealing with someone else with an insecure attachment style. Ie avoiding and not wanting to discuss conflict, thinking your feelings are arguments, not wanting any closeness, pushing you away (though they will surely blame you for doing the pushing away and not see their pushing away behavior which instigated things), not opening up, avoiding deeper issues at all costs—feelings—also not taking responsibility for their parts. To add, sometimes there may be gaslighting to try to confuse you (even if they were not doing it intentionally). By the way, I could label this as it is, a “dismissive avoidant” attachment style. But there again, that is a label. And all it does is sink a person’a self-esteem. “There must be something wrong or defective about me.” Labels give some good information so practitioners can easily collaborate to help a client. But all thr nuances of each individual are missing. And not everyone fits so cookie cutter into these labels—yet we know sometimes we could be squeezed in for others’ sakes. So this dismissive style is all a recipe for disaster for my anxious attachment style that wanted closeness. They prefer distance. Back and forth and round and round it went. I have stepped back into my life and my more supportive friends. Yet there has been no resolution for me in this friendship, though I am pretty certain the other party has shoved my concerns into a black hole of their mind. They are just fine, thank you—not discussing things like “I feel hurt we dont spend time together.” (One example). I sit here with the wreckage of their inability to talk with me and address things in the friendship. Yet now, having a more secure attachment style I am able to walk away. And it only happens in one relationship. Not others. Those others dont push “me” aside. And I surely dont fit all “the criterion” they believe I fit into. Things overlap. People are individuals. What I am saying is that saying that “People in therapy are there because of the people that are not in therapy in their lives..” I think when someone wants to evade responsibility and accountability and evade looking inward at their own behavior (that would take work and feelings and maybe even therapy!) they are there blaming the other party for most everything. It can look like one is mentally ill due to the DYNAMIC. And I am—I have bipolar disorder with c-ptsd and a touch of ocd. Nothing is wrong with bpd. That is not the point here. The point here is to be aware that behavior is often a product of one’s environment. It is not a solitary thing all the time, especially in relationships. In fact, relationships should be 50/50 accountability and 100% compromise. Stop over apologizing because you think something is wrong with you. Nothing is wrong with you. You are a human. The other is a human. You are equally human. If the environment is shaky then those in it may often be shaky too (those interacting in that environment). But there is a choice. Leave the environment that stigmatizes you and avoids responsibility and invalidates you. Get away if you can. Or at least create distance. And heal while in a more conducive environment—learn to better take care of you around people who are more warm and validating and do want to spend time with you, as you are. Then build on that for yourself, within yourself. No matter how long it takes. Fight for yourself in a more solid supportive environment. That certainly makes the fight less threatening. I am. And I am becoming more secure in all ways, able to depend on myself, despite the past traumas of the c-ptsd and the high ups and low downs of my bipolar disorder. I am a human. Not a diagnosis. Will I ever be able to explain this all to the other party? Would they ever underdtand this, let alone agree or take accountability—then change? My doubts reign strong here. It has not occurred so far. I refuse to let anyone treat me any other way than human(intentional or not)—without labels (which give preconceived notions for sure and are often out of ignorance). Labels are just that. Labels. They are a set of descriptors for an illness. They do not take into account all the other positive and strong personality and bodily characteristics left out of that label. Or the strengths within that label. The label is used so people can often serve their own needs to make sense of things they might not understand or might not want to see in themselves. Dont let a label (used for brevity of communication among medical practitioners) define you. And make sure those practitioners have the whole story because they are not you living in your world. They see you for 50 minutes a week. They can misdiagnosis too. But no matter, dont let a label define you. And definitely dont let another person define you because they fear the true definitions of themselves.

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Social media can be addicting... I want to be active and take part in it, but I don't want to lose myself to the temptations that feel built specifically for my ADHD. Is there a program that restricts social media? (I.e. only let's a person post twice a day or only lets you spend 30 minutes on it a day before it locks you out based on your settings.)

If not, then there should be. Time management is a huge issue that a lot of people struggle with, especially if you have ADHD or other mental health disorders.

I know there are apps and programs that allow you to block sites entirely, but I get lazy and tempted, especially when I'm depressed. I know I can unblock it at whim and I won't always feel like going through the hassle of turning it on and off. Maybe one of them has a timer built into it that can you can schedule for every day or week or month (interval options are important). I need to do more research, but maybe one of you good people knows and uses something they like and could save me some time?

#social #SocialMedia #MightyTogether #Addiction #boundaries