Maybe I really am crazy. Everytime I feel like I'm loving with everything I've got I'm always left alone feeling sorry. Why do I have to be this way? Why do I push everyone away? Will I ever be good enough for someone to stay? Because I'm really tired of living life this way. I want to be happy for more than a day. I'm starting to understand why some chose death instead of waiting for fate, cause who the fuck wants to be sorry every day? I try so hard to replay my life. I promise you it's not a pretty tape.... And some memories I wish I could erase!!! But somewhere I've mixed love with hate, and I've been living life this way... Causing nothing but pain. I could sit here and throw around who's to blame.!! Because, honestly life is easier that way! But I'd rather die than continue this way. So here I am begging you to help me change. Show me the difference between love and hate because my whole life the two have been the same.....