Last night I was thinking of all the times I've intentionally and unintentionally hurt people throughout my life... And it made me feel like I was a bad person. I know guilt is such a useless emotion, but sometimes I just feel like shit. 😔#Depression #BadPerson #Feelingbad #Guilt
I think I can safely state that I AM a good person. However, my ocd sometimes makes me think I’m horrible.
I have gotten quite hurt lately from my ex - my pain now doesn’t really revolve around love, but more around the fact that this person proved to be very emotionally toxic, manipulative and more egoistic than I thought.
Since then, my ocd tries to focus as much as possible on how I am a good person.... which means sometimes, random memories of me not saying things that were too nice in the past start hitting me. The cases in which I have said something that could potentially hurt someone are actually few. And to be honest, most of them are things that did not actually hurt anyone. But then some of these things connect to my current insecurities, and I think “oh god, imagine if my ex had said to me the same thing I said to my friend two years ago”. And then I think that I am horrible, and I cannot say that I am a better person than my ex. What do I do...
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