checkinwiththemighty

Last Winter I didn’t know I needed this. I attended a transitions program at our local college. My first day there I opened up about abuse I had endured years ago and the emotional pain I endure to this day because of it. I also didn’t even remember that I made it through and was talking about it all in the past tense.
The meeting was intimate, but I felt in the company of others who knew how I felt, without saying a word. For the first time in my life I didn’t have to explain myself to others. They just “got it”. And it showed.
This group was a first step to not feeling alone. I didn’t know I needed it until it was all over, and now I’m lifelong friends with the lovely people who made it through the process with me. For the first time in over 23 years, I have people in my life I can trust.

The ceremony we had the last day had a tree made of art and on it were butterflies made of construction paper. We were all instructed to write something on one, and at the end of the ceremony, to take one home that spoke to us.

I didn’t know then why I took the one I did.

Then less than a month later, police called my family. They had found my mom but she passed horrifically. I have questions still.
I still need to talk about it.
My mourning is just beginning. My anxiety is worse now that the memorial is completed. I’m seeing a therapist twice a week. It wasn’t enough. I’m scared most of the time now but have to be the one to comfort and protect my kids at home.
So I reached out here. I don’t even recall how I found this forum. I’m grateful I have.
I want to share with anyone of you, the message I have with me everywhere I go now. I’m sharing with you, the ones who are still struggling, daily, who believe no one is watching or listening, I get it.

You aren’t alone. Keep checking in. We will get to you, we will read what you wrote and you’ll be heard.
Your voice is valid, and your truths are sincere. Keep going. Share when you’re ready.

You are WHAT you say you are & WHO you say you are~ No one else can decide that. What you feel matters, holds value, and is valid! What you deserve masters, and it's what your life should be! I know pain just as we all do! I also know love, because I've learned to give it to myself. I hope as the new morning breaks or when it greets you, you'll be KIND to yourself, and #Speaklife into your days! #checkinwiththemighty #mantra #Positivity #words #InsideTheMighty #overcoming