I will be married for 10 years with him for 14. When you first get together with someone you get to know each other. Can’t seem to get enough of each other. Most couples get into a routine and go about your business. My husband is different in a way I feel he thinks he is entitled to once a week. I just don’t have it in me anymore. I don’t get anything out of it anymore. I have so much going on in my body and I just don’t want touched anymore. I’m being so selfish. It’s killing me because I was a very touchy feeling person. I have pain everywhere.

I am trying to redo our bathroom. Paint, new fixtures and knobs. Trying to get stuff done before my knee replacement surgery. The last time I painted a room I could bend and get into the tight spots. No help needed. Well I got a real wake up call. I couldn’t do it. Then I get frustrated and just pissed off. I’ve been working on this all week. So I’m upset with myself and I get it’s been over a week. I just lost it!! I screamed at him I can’t do this and you when I’m not getting nothing out of it. I’m not the same woman I was and I keep telling you that but you keep thinking I am! He left and went to the store. I balled my eyes out went upstairs and painted trim. #Migraine #Hypothyroidism #RLS #Osteoarthritis #Hypertension #spinalcorddisease #Depression #PTSD #Syrinx #Tinnitus