12 years of marriage, 5years of relationship in total have known this person for whole of 17 years. And myself for 33 years now. And i feel I don't know muself. I'm so broken and hurt he's made me so lonely. And so torn inside. No trust no love. All compromises. And. Hoplessness. I feel so disgusted of myself. I have 3 beautiful kids last one is a 50days old baby. She was unplanned angel. Came into our life maybe for a reason. U have started to realise who's true and who's not after being mother for 3 rd time realising who's faking love 😣 I'm so hurt inside I have no one to express my feelings with. . So so lonely and depressed sometimes just wana end this life or run of somewhere where no one knows anything of me. 😭 then I think of my little ones ns pause and turn back around to this life full off depression and pain. 😢😢😢😢😢#helplesss #hopeless #lonely #Depression #Anxiety