I can't remember when last I felt happy. It's so easy to just say "I'm fine" or "I'm good thanks" when in truth I just want to cry. I hate feeling like this... It's come to a point where I constantly think about suicide and it scares me. I'm not planning on taking my life, but these thoughts are always in my head. It's so exhausting. I hate the stigma that mental health is just a thing of "just snap out of it" or "you're just looking for attention". If only people knew how difficult it is to fight this lonely battle.

I wish I could speak to my BF about this, but I'm worried that it would scare him off. I feel so guilty not telling him how I feel, but I've lost too many people close to me that I cared for in the past.

I just need a hug😞

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