I am tired.. Tired of everything.. I am really very very tired. I have no energy. I am running out of all my strengths and energy. Believe me I can't even get up from my bed. I don’t even have that energy. I am tired of convincing myself to go on, finding positivity and all.. The people around me are just making it worst. Two days back, I had a work on my College and had to face so many humiliating things from my teacher because I didn’t do really well in my exams. There were others too having worse result than me but i became the target. That was so offensive that it made me traumatised. I wanted to commit suicide and die. I wanted to leave everything. I felt like all the hopes and positivity that i built up inside myself just got destroyed in a second.. I wanted to give up so badly. Now, how i am supposed to tell him how much hardships i have gone through to even attend the exam.. How much i struggled.. Dealing with major depression and all.. Insulting a depressed person like me is like killing someone who is already dead. My situation got worst that day. I cried badly for an hour in my college.. It was so bad that i can't even tell. Somehow, i tried to come out from that. But, depression is coming back again. My situation is getting worse. I am in a crisis state. Yesterday night, it became so bad that i was having breathing problems. I am unable to contract my psychiatrist.. I have my appointment after two weeks. And, i don’t know what to do.. Everything is getting out of control.. Random suicidal thoughts are haunting me.. I can't.. #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #SuicidalThoughts