I had sex with 2 guys in the same day. and I still don’t feel anything so it makes me want to just hook up with someone else. I’m just here going through the motions. I don’t find either of these guys interesting or “my type” I’m keep using them for sex, which I feel bad about. And it makes it even worse bc I can only somewhat enjoy it if I’m being physically hurt.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Sex #hypersexual #Selfharm #CPTSD
I just hung out with this guy and the entire time I felt like I wasn’t there. I had to pinch myself several times to bring myself back. Even with the sex it was just uncomfortable and terrible honestly . But I was able to be brought back to reality and I was able to feel somthing other than feeling like I literally don’t exists. Like I’m not my own if that makes sense? Idk what do you guys think. I’m being positive. Also I’m really fucking triggered bc my friends just told me their having a baby and I’m sad because I wanted to be with my ex, and I really did want a family with him, but ofc I was too much. So it sad ugh. I’m all over the place I hate this.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #numb #hypersexual #hateeverything
I had therapy this morning and I told my therapist I’ve been hyper sexual and I’ve been “hanging out “ out with people, and I don’t want to, but it’s the only way for me to cope. And he said “what if it was your sister what would you say to her” like wtf kinda question is that? I’m literally telling you I’ve been spiraling and you asking me how I should cope? This is how I’m coping you fucking moron but fucking ughhh!! I’m so annoyed. Am I being too sensitive? I hate the “what If” talk. Like fucking help me and stop making up these hypotheticals when I’m telling you real life shit
#Therapy #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #hypersexual
I was too much for him, and that’s okay. I can’t be mad that he didn’t save me. I can’t even save myself. That’s the only way I don’t get too depressed over my failed relationship. I loved him. I love him. But it’s okay. I will fill the space with meaningless sex until I am loved again.
#Relationships #Fp #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Sex
#Selfharm #Depression #Love #hypersexual
When I’m super triggered or want to escape my emotions I automatically go to sex. So lately I’ve been having a really hard time uo and down constantly and I bknetly just wanted to feel something, so I hooked up with this guy and I still don’t feel anything and now I’m triggered to do it all over again. Am I just a whore? I’m so sad. I just want everything to stop. I just want to get high and go away.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #hypersexual #sad #Depression #triggered #cycle
I can feel my bpd getting worse. Impulsive behavior and so hyper sexual right now. I just want to do crazy things right now! 😔
i have bpd ,ocd and ptsd. and i am codependent these days. i am trying to control my bf #hypersexual behaviours ,he is working on himself. but i feel trigger every time ,whenever i feel danger or same behaviour of him i saw before .and my codependency creating mess in my life. can you suggest any tips tricks or books or anything from which i can balance my behaviour.
#hypersexual time again. I’m trying to write a fantasy story to my fiancé about what’s going on in my head rather than abusing my body masturbating or cutting. I’m letting the story be over the top. I’m not holding back. I’d be so mortified if anyone ever found this new notebook. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #TraumaticBrainInjury #Hypersexuality
Aaaand it’s on!
I felt it coming. I was out of bed, went to a support group meeting, did a bazillion loads of laundry for myself and a friend. Wanted to stay up all night, jonesing to prowl around for sex...cheating, cooked (I usually don’t do that), unpacked boxes, cleaned the litter box, sent out many hilarious jokes and memes to everyone....
I’m holding back, with a death-grip, the urges to spend much and fuck many.
Left a message for my Dr
Waiting for her call.
In the mean time, organizing and alphabetizing my life. #Hypomania #hypomanic #MixedBipolarDisorder #BipolarDisorder #hypersexual
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