weight fluctuation

I am a 25 year old female.
I used to weigh around 65 kg.
I went on birth control for my epilepsy (the need for hormones)
And now I am 74kg.
I can’t fit any of the clothes I used to feel so good in. So now I try to wear oversized clothes cause I don’t want people to see my tummy. (Also coming into winter again, I want to be able to wear my favourite jeans but I don’t think that’s going to happen.)
My tummy pokes out, and I have a muffin top again.
I used to be able to look down and see my private part and feel confidant in my body . I used to have abs, I used to be skinny enough to see my muscle tone in my legs and arms, I used to feel beautiful. Now i look down and I hate what I see. I hate looking in the mirror. My double chin has come back and it makes me embarrassed some days when I think about what people see. I hate trying on clothes cause I used to be size 10 now I’m size 14.
The worst thing is, I have an active job. Using muscle and sweating everyday. So I take that as my exercise.
I hate going to the gym or doing sit ups or things like that. I got skinny so easily, it just happened, I didn’t even notice. And now I gained weight back so fast, it’s horrible.
I wish I could feel that confidence in my body like I used to.
My sister has just had a baby and looks better than I do for god sake 😣
#WeightFluctuation #weight #BodyImage

I’m wondering how many cycles you have to break to change
I feel it’s overwhelming

I've decided that the only reason I've gained weight is because a tiny body couldn't store all this personality 🤣

This certainly is an unwanted side effect of my medications. The doctor told me diet, more activity and talking to the doctor are all things I could do. Have you experienced this? What did you do? #WeightFluctuation #Antidepressants

Cheer me up and check on me and give support? At least I got up showered and did my physical therapy exercises. Discouraged about my weight gain. #PTSD #Bipolar2Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ADHD #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CheckInWithMe #Chatspace #Upallnight #Borderline Bipolar depression #BipolarDisorder #MightyTogether #MightyQuestions #TheMightyTakeaway #Art #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #BorderlineStigma #CPTSD #PinchedNerve #ChronicPain #Fibromyaliga #Fibromyalgia #FibromyalgiaSucks #ChronicPain #GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Photography #Friends #Love #sad #Faith #god #Sadness #WeightFluctuation #WeightLoss #ChronicIllnessStigma

A shout-out to those:

Who have gained weight because of their chronic illnesses.
Who have gained weight because of their medications.
Who have gained weight because of surgical procedures.
Who are unable to exercise because of their chronic illnesses.

You are a wonderful human worthy of love and care. I know you berate yourself every day. But know you're not alone and it's not your fault. You're beautiful just the way you are!

(Notes to self)

#ChronicIllness #WeightFluctuation #Fatigue #ChronicFatigue #Selflove #TrigeminalNeuralgia #Fibromyalgia #SideEffects #RheumatoidArthritis #CrohnsDisease #Selfesteem #RareDisease

Last year and the early part of this year I lost about 40 lbs due to symptoms of my chronic illnesses (nausea, vomiting) that had gotten way out of hand, coupled with unbelievable stress and anxiety. According to people I "looked sick" (I'll admit I did look a little peaked 😅). Soooo I worked really hard to get myself back up to a healthy weight.. only now I've gained the lost weight back.. and then some! I'm not nearly as active as I used to be because of my chronic pain fatigue and almost constant dizziness. Even working with my physical therapist leaves me in pain for days after where I can't do much of anything. I used to love yoga but also struggle with that now (largely in part to my lack of balance due to Ménière's). My daughter and I used to go for walks but now I find myself in so much pain and so fatigued after that I have had to cut back, not to mention the crappy, inconsistent weather. I've noticed on the days I'm not nauseous I have an increase in appetite and just want to eat everything. I didn't see it as a big deal until at a recent appt according to my BMI I was now categorized as overweight (even though its it's just slightly over) it made me concerned that if I continue with these inconsistent eating habits I'll continue to gain. My mom has commented on my weight gain on a few different occasions and although I know she doesn't mean any harm I'm becoming increasingly self conscious about it. Looking in the mirror I see the changes in my body and feel ashamed.. I dread going to the Dr because I know they'll weigh me and can't help but wonder what the nurses are thinking as they enter my weight into the system. I've always been one to not care what other people think but lately I've been feeling really vulnerable and somewhat insecure. I miss my active life.. the days of just being able to run or jog. I still fight through yoga on the days I'm able to do it and of course I have my physical therapy but I crave being able to do some kind of cardio that my body will allow.... ☹😔#WeightLoss #weightgain #Spoonie #WeightFluctuation #InvisibleIllness

I have struggled with symptoms of anorexia for a while, and since being diagnosed with IBS, I've been afraid of losing too much weight because on my days with flare ups, I don't eat much so I don't irritate my system more than it already is. I am afraid of losing weight because I have recently accepted that weighing 120lbs at the age of 19 is okay, but I know if I start spiralling after significant weight loss, I may return to that fear of being 120+ lbs. Does anyone have any advice for this?

#WeightFluctuation #Advice

Just went to the doctor and I’ve gained 20 pounds since I was taken off of my prednisone... it’s really messing with me especially because I can’t workout at all, let alone how I use to. Anyone else deal with this or have tips?
#IdiopathicThrombocytopenicPurpuraITP #Prednisone #ED #EatingDisorderRecovery #WeightFluctuation #weightgain #MentalHealth #Exercise