Just want to vent
After waiting months to get another therapist that's free once a week, my bro finally found one and she ended up triggering him a lot and sounded very inexperienced. I just wanted to vent on here because it seems as though his symptoms are getting slightly worse. I try not to bring up therapy too much cause i know sometimes he gets mad when I do. But im very angry that there's long wait times for people who need help. It's not fair and is very harmful to people who really need help. The state i live in passed something that was suppose to help reduce wait times but i have yet to see any changes. I feel so bad for him because i know he's struggling and there's nothing I can do but be there for him but im also not able to be in the mood to be supportive 24/7. Sometimes i want to just be in my room and try to give myself a break from the constant mood changes that happen to be negative and angry most of the time and severely sad along with the over thinking that makes the person believe that that's reality when it's really not. It's hard to watch someone mentally deteriorate and know that they want therapy but can't get 1 right away. It's hard to hear the things he says knowing it's his illness but it doesn't take away how much the words hurt. #venting #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #obsessivethoughts #RacingThoughts #Caregiving
TL;DR: People with OCD, have you ever developed obsessive thoughts about being neurodivergent (like autistic or sensory problems)? How did you figure out whether you were actually ND or if the obsession was totally made up? Please read my whole post before responding if possible, thanks 3>
Last night was hell. Took a lot of garbage from emotionally abusive partner. So sad and upset I had urge to #Selfharm I didn't which is a victory. I went to bed and got some good rest.
Today, I'm fighting to recover and bounce back. I have been tearful and anxious yet at the same time at peace bc I haven't had any contact with him since last night. I have a lot to do tonight to get ready for tomorrow's inspection of my apartment. I feel anxious yet confident that once I get started I will do okay. But I admit my obsessive thinking about last night tries to comes into play. If I think about it much I am reduced to tears.
In an episode of #BipolarDepression . #obsessivethoughts #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EmotionalAbuse
Just pushed through a mixed episode. It was exhilarating, terrifying, and utterly exhausting. Unable to sleep, obsessive thoughts, & substance abuse.
I’m at work all day with about a thousand things to do. Last night my bf and I had a small argument and we went to bed without really making up. I’ve been stuck on it all morning and can’t seem to stop or even lift my mood. It doesn’t help that I started my period today, either. My emotions are even more all over the place than usual. How can I stop obsessing over this thing that happened last night that I can’t really fix or change now? I’m torn between crying in my stock room or being angry all day. #BipolarDisorder #obsessivethoughts
Racing Thoughts Make Me Want to Crawl Out Of My Skin
Can’t seem to stop recurring thoughts. I just want to turn my brain off. Can’t deal with conflicts and when I go over my contacts’ list, I don’t seem to find anyone I want to talk to. I just need someone to tell me things are going to be ok, that was I said and did was valid.
Help stopping #IntrusiveThoughts ?
Starting in March of this year, I have had sometimes debilitating, obsessive intrusive thoughts about my identity. These thoughts are terrifying, and I want to regain my confidence. They have lessened as of now, but I’m really afraid they’ll come back. I’m scared I’ll never feel 100% confident in myself again (even though I have been before). Any tips on how to combat these thoughts? #Anxiety #IntrusiveThoughts #obsessivethoughts #SelfDoubt
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